The Turmoil within my Feeble Brain !? – An Insight
I start fighting only when I know I have lost the battle !!
And then I complain to myself that I was so close but am so far or I have butter fingers. The tendency to delay, postpone and procrastinate the time at which I have to make those important decisions has always hurt me. Yet I have never taken a corrective measure.
I realize that I have worked well in continuously deteriorating whatever little good things I had within me. Why ?? I do not have an answer. The habit of taking feedback has never helped me. I have always listened to the feedback and then justified why I am like the way I am. I have become rigid all the more, having a reason for every flaw within me.
I have become extremely frustrated and short of temper. I have totally lost interest in any person or thing. And I question what is the purpose of going through this ordeal. I question myself whether I am bipolar or I am in one of those 5 stages.
At the end, I ask too many question without having any answer. It has been ages since I had a dialogue with anyone. Well, on the contrary, I feel I have never had a dialogue with anyone and I guess I am in desperate need. If never, then why I have this craving?
I can go on and on with my ramblings, but it is without any fruitful outcome. I can be an epitome. An epitome which will suffice for many categories. But an epitome which is further becoming of how not to be.
Memories are not of people, but the comfort zone they have created for you when they were there. Craving is not because you miss the person, but because they left a void within yourself !!
PS: These are just random scribbles. In their truest sense. They may be incoherent !!
A ak baar pune agja, i will answer all ur questions,
Don’t write this type of scraps, untill we are there around you idiot
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