Another End of the Day !!
I have 7 numbers on my speed dial list, and soon 3 of which will no longer be there. Only because I would not need to call them 10 times or more in a single day.
For past few days, a post that I had written almost 2 years back is hovering in my mind. Yes, I am having the same feeling as I did when I had written the post. It is also the same feeling I had after finishing college. But my apprehensions of people and life after college have been proved wrong. And inspite of this, it is as if, I have to start all over again. I wonder why these feelings are clouding my mind. I wonder if the exodus was one by one and not in chunk like now, would I be feeling the same way?? I am not sure!! But yes, I do know, the feeling is definitely compounded because of the chunk factor. Suddenly all, not one, aspects will change. Suddenly I would not have any of the shadows, which would shield me from the blazing sun. Suddenly I will find myself in the crowd and not among friends. The previous statement would rather be harsh. But each one serves a different purpose in one’s life. Each is unique. No one can be replaced. But yes, the pain can be reduced!!
But, is it pain. No!! It is not the pain. I am sure of that, for I understand. People need to move, for their destiny, for their goals. They have to follow their heart, follow it wherever it takes them. It’s just the void that will be left that’s troubling me. As I think of the void, I think, I feel, and ask myself whether it is cyclic?? Every 4-5 years I feel this way. For every 4-5 years, the set will change. Well it has been almost like this for almost the whole of my life (at least I perceive it to be that way). May be things have to change every 4-5 years. Every 4-5 years, the cake becomes the icing and the icing becomes the cherry. Sometimes a layer is added, sometimes it is not.
But all these rumblings of the mind do not help. At the end of the day, the thoughts just cycle around. At the end of the day, things just change. At the end of the day, Life goes on!!
At the end of the day, I would just wish, they would be happy. Happy in the glory of achievements which they dreamed of!! At the end of the day, I would just wish, whenever they hear some names/phrases, they would say to themselves, I have a friend who is known by those names and phrases !!
Moving out of the comfort zone is never easy. Especially from the comfort zone which is created by the presence of someone else!!
Hi!
I guess you too wrote out this post in a similar bent of mind. I hope youve found your peace. I am still searching.
Adios.
LC
Once a wise woman said–
“It is not easy to live with things that do not fall in line with your ideologies, but at least one can choose to accept the differences. Maybe we can’t find solutions all the time and its best to part ways”
@LC Well, I have got used to do the new ways of life.
@He-man. The wise woman said it right. Sometimes you have to part ways because they are no solutions. But sometimes, you just part ways!! In this case, you start to find the solution to the parting!
Mine was the latter.
And still in seach.
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EUREKA!
I found alcohol. What a solution!
Alcohol is never a solution. Its just one of the ways to procrastinate the need for the solution.
Darn! You caught me.
You seem to be a fellow veteran!
I couldnt agree more with kid about the alcohol bit.
We had always concurred on disgareements.