…scribbles…

Today’s conversation left me in a state of shock. In state where I couldn’t understand what happened. What role did I play .. or do I play, what is the truth and what actually are my beliefs. I was surprised to see the person in the state in which I usually am, and even more to find myself to play the role what I was playing.

But I cannot fail to highlight, that the immediate feeling I had when the conversation was over, was the feeling of great distance. The feeling that I have really lost ground and suddenly I am no longer as important as I thought I was…Suddenly I started to feel like the Legacy Character all over again…!!!

I hope I am wrong !!!

…there I just said it,

I am scared you will forget about me…!!

[Edge of Desire by John Mayer]

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Its been 10 years since I have left home.

I lay in my bed, and I have this feeling in my head. I can’t seem to define it…but it reminds me of some other time. As I then, sat in that chair, in the evening thinking…what next. That was 10 years ago, when I first left my home. When I first left the comfort of family. The kind of comfort which comes only from family.

Over the past 10 years, the ride has its fair share of ups and downs. Times when I knew I was reaching new heights…and then times when I knew I was exploring new bottoms. I have been fortunate know many people …and at the end, better able to understand myself… Also, over the course of these 10 years, I found a comfort of another kind. The comfort of my friends…and now, as I lay in the bed, the same thoughts come rushing back… of may be something … of asking … what next?

What has changed??

Well I have gone the single biggest of change in my lifestyle…since leaving home.

and two weeks into this lifestyle…I think I am liking it.

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