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It is Me.

It started with Me…when I allowed it to…
And as I grew in time.. It grew with Me.
From my ability to fathom it.. and discern it.
It developed in front of my own eyes…with My mind.
It became complex only because I allowed it to be so ..
and it is in My own control to simplify it too…

It is happy, when I wish it to be..
when I am happy.
It is sad, when I want it to be ..
when I drowse myself in sorrow.

It is only Me.. which affects it .. and nothing else…
and only I decide.. how it should be.
It moves when I want it to move..
and at the pace I choose… It stops only when I allow it to take a rest.

It is Me.. around which it revolves..and
Without Me .. it is nothing..
It is there…because I allowed it to be there in the first place.

It is Me..
It started with Me…and It shall end with Me too.

The world ceases to exist when I cease to be.
The World is Me.It is Me.

I am the World…the World is within Me.
For the World is nothing without Me.

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There is a famous quote from the Speech by Theodore Roosevelt, given in Paris in 1910. The quote goes something like this

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

And after reading this… I question myself…am I one of the souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

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Whilst the job of the so called Govt of India is to look after its citizens, the objective seems to be shifting more towards scoring high on profit and growth numbers.

India has a huge population which lives below the poverty line who endure great pains just to have two square meals a day. India also has a good number of people who fall in the categories of HNW Individuals, Upper class, Upper-middle class and lower middle class….of we can go on in dividing the demography of the country into various classes!! But basically it falls into two broad categories, people who pay taxes and are able to earn a decent living and people who are not able to do that.

The Govt. of India uses the tax money mainly to give provide for the politicians, either by salary which keeps on going high every year or by the various innovative methods of corruption these politicians come up with. Whatever little that remains, is used for the development of the country.

Some of the money mentioned is used to buy grains and other edible material from the farmers and give them at a concessional rate to the poor people. Well, at the first look it sure is a novel idea and act up as a balancing act.

But what happens when, the bought food is not sold to the poor but rots in the store of the country? The food prices for the people who can afford rises because a portion of the supply is removed and the poor are still left hungry.

Our spineless judiciary did take note of this and rightly directed the Govt of India to give them away for free to the poor.

What does our famed PM respond to this, that it will remove the incentive from the farmers to produce.

My question here is, will it ?? I believe the farmers will be interested in the money we give them in exchange of the grain and not what we do with the grain? So if the Govt of India is really worried about the incentive to farmers then it should give them a higher price for their goods. AND not create an artificial hike in the price by removing the supply, in the name of providing for the poor.

The whole fiasco just outlines how we are being duped by our so called Govt. of India!!

We as in both, the people who can afford and pay taxes and the people who cannot afford  two square meals a day!!

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Today’s conversation left me in a state of shock. In state where I couldn’t understand what happened. What role did I play .. or do I play, what is the truth and what actually are my beliefs. I was surprised to see the person in the state in which I usually am, and even more to find myself to play the role what I was playing.

But I cannot fail to highlight, that the immediate feeling I had when the conversation was over, was the feeling of great distance. The feeling that I have really lost ground and suddenly I am no longer as important as I thought I was…Suddenly I started to feel like the Legacy Character all over again…!!!

I hope I am wrong !!!

…there I just said it,

I am scared you will forget about me…!!

[Edge of Desire by John Mayer]

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Its been 10 years since I have left home.

I lay in my bed, and I have this feeling in my head. I can’t seem to define it…but it reminds me of some other time. As I then, sat in that chair, in the evening thinking…what next. That was 10 years ago, when I first left my home. When I first left the comfort of family. The kind of comfort which comes only from family.

Over the past 10 years, the ride has its fair share of ups and downs. Times when I knew I was reaching new heights…and then times when I knew I was exploring new bottoms. I have been fortunate know many people …and at the end, better able to understand myself… Also, over the course of these 10 years, I found a comfort of another kind. The comfort of my friends…and now, as I lay in the bed, the same thoughts come rushing back… of may be something … of asking … what next?

What has changed??

Well I have gone the single biggest of change in my lifestyle…since leaving home.

and two weeks into this lifestyle…I think I am liking it.

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